Chris and I

Chris and I
My wonderful husband and I in Wisconsin for a little vacation :-)

Monday, January 9, 2012

Struggle with my Faith

You know this past week I have found myself definitely struggling with my faith, but I have been praying and came to realize our prayers are answered in Gods terms not ours.

A friend of mine had a little boy about a year and a half ago and he passed away at roughly 55 minutes old. She recently went had another little boy who is now about two months old. He was in the hospital for about a month in a half. He was home for a week before returning to the hospital. Now the doctors are saying that he has fluid in his brain which caused him to go blind in one eye. They are saying that if he gets any worse that the plug should be pulled.

The thing that frustrates me the most is how can this happen to an amazing woman? How can her and her family be in so much emotional pain? Why is this HAPPENING? Why would God let a family go through so much? Before all of this happened I believed that God took babies out of this world because they were to perfect for Earth.

I know that God loves us. And that if he takes this child he will not be in pain and will be happy and healthy, maybe that is the answer to all of our prayers of healing? In the case of her first son his prayers of healing were answered. He was taken to heaven and will forever be healthy and happy.

God is wonderful and he does answer my prayers, it may not be in a way I like but it is HIS will. I may not always understand why and I am sure I will question it from time to time, but He is LORD and knows what is best for each and every one of us.

After all of this I just want to give thanks to you Lord God for my family. You gave me a precious, beautiful little girl and a husband that loves me and cares for our family. I thank you for my life and all the gifts you have given me and for all the gifts in years to come.

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